yes, the regularity of my blogs becomes, well, not regular.

it has been about three weeks since my last entry. the sad truth is that i just haven’t made time to write in here. i am almost dysfunctionally overwhelmed, i think. but really, this is not sad at all. this is me back to living my life again, probably busier than i have ever been. and all of that is a really good thing.

i confess that i live in fear that now that things are moving along after my being sick for so long, my surgery, etc., that it will all come back, all the agony of feeling like shit all the time and not being able to maintain the band, the music, the improv, a social life, and so on. but it’s about eight weeks since my surgery and so far i am a lot better than i was. i do have some odd symptoms lingering. and i have good days and bad ones. but i am not the mess i used to be.

anyway, things are good. and crazy. band is back in action, or new bandmate andrew is a godsend, and i think the overall vibe of things is better than it has ever been. there will be some big announcements in the coming months, i think, and we have shows on the horizon for the first time in a while. new songs are in the making. new plans are in the offing. my improv classes are going well, 301 is nearly over, and my improv group, newly coined GARAMOND, will actually begin performing next month, which is insane. i got into atlantic and i start tomorrow night. i am trying to find new and exciting ways to make money without selling my soul, the new economy frightens and nauseates me. the world is changing quickly. a hundred years ago we barely had running water. thirty years ago we didn’t have computers. where is it all going?, i have to wonder. but the creative spirit is more important than it has ever been, i know that and feel it deep in my bones. these are the times when beauty is heightened. when great things are made. even if no one notices them or pays attention.

anyway, my last blog’s resolution about not writing new entries until i edit all the old ones and post them kind of fell by the wayside. but i am still working on that project.

to anyone who actually reads this: apologies for the infrequency. it’s a lot easier to blog more often when i am laid up in my apartment recovering from this or that. life does and will get in the way. but i am still here and there will be more, so keep reading.